Day 14

Here we are! Day 14, two whole weeks. I cannot believe it. I am super proud of myself. I feel stronger & healthier. It is and probably always will be a daily struggle for me, but for now I am glowing with success. I have thought a lot about joining a recovery group. My brother gave me the name of one. I keep thinking I can do this on my own. I have for 14 days, why can't I keep going. My heart says because this is only going to get harder. But does it have to get harder. Which part of this is the hardest. The first day, week, month, 6 months, year. When does it get easy? Never? Not that I want this to be easy, I just want to know when I will stop thinking about it ALL DAY LONG! On the upside I plan things to keep me busy at night. This time of year it is easy with all the snow storms and holiday baking and cooking that needs to be done. But what about when the holidays are over? I am going to need to find a hobby. Maybe if I find a group that meets one or two nights a week that will help. I will find it or it will find me, I am sure. For now, 7 days until Christmas and I am super crazy excited for it. Last year I was so depressed I didn't even enjoy it. I was so sad & not living in the moment that I am probably over compensating for it this year, but we have so much to celebrate this year, even though it was a tough year. But my journey over last 12-14 months has finally come full cirlce and getting sober is the final piece to this puzzle of finding who I was! Peace, love and eternal happiness, Me.