Confident??

Hello Again! Not drinking. Is not as easy as it sounds. Thinking about not drinking is even harder to do. My husband took me out on a spontanious date night on Monday. I normally would have had a glass of wine before we left & then a bottle or two at dinner and more when we got home. The night would have ended in a drunk fight and we both would have been miserable. That's not how it went. It started with this comment by my husband, "as long as you don't have any wine we will have enought money for a really nice dinner." WHAT!! I have been sober for 114 days now. Each day has been a struggle, and he knows that. Why would he put my sobriety into question. In the past I would have gone off on him, but the new sober and calm me just brushed it off. That's not to say I wasn't hurt for a second by it. We went out and had a wonderful dinner at a local gastropub. Now, they only serve beer and wine at this establishment, so I knew what I was getting myself into. I knew there would be temptation, but I also knew that I had to be strong & confident. The table next to us kept talking about how wonderful their glass of wine was. Here's the great part, the thought of even smelling the wine made me sick to my stomach! Confidence, yes!! We had the most amazing Chef Tasting Menu for dinner. I could not tell you a single thing we ate, but it all was amazing. I do know we ate octapus! The night ended very quietly with us discussing how nice it was to come home and just chill in front of the TV. Confident . . ya, I guess I am. Peace, Love & Eternal Happiness, Me.