Day 13

Hello Again, Day 13; what comes to mind is superstition. Which in my mind means bad luck. But Friday the 13th came and went with no issue, so I suspect today will come and go with no issue. But when you are new to being sober you worry about every little thing and this superstition is really something to worry about. Your mind is consumed with thinking about NOT drinking and what you need to do NOT to drink. You plan and plan and think about it all the time. It consumes your whole day. So, on a day like today I will think harder & longer about NOT drinking. It is getting eaiser, but still hard when I get home and I want to make a gin and tonic and instead make a Orangina and seltzer water. Once I have that first sip I feel so much better, then I forget about the alcohol and go on with my night. It is easy to type, but not easy to live it. It takes all of my being not to go into the liquor cabinet and grab the gin or a bottle of wine. But I know if I do, I will have to start all over. Start this journey all over & I am really proud of where I am and really do not want to feel like a failure. So I will be strong and keep on keeping on. Tomorrow it will be 14 days, two weeks sober. The first week was eaiser than this second week, but hopefully the third week will be calm and we can get thru this and move on into 2014 sober and with a new perspective on life. Peace, love and eternal happiness. Me.