Day Two

Hello! So last night was not so bad. I was super tired and we had to plans to sit in our chairs and watch the Sounds of Music. I found myself standing in the kitchen after the dinner plates were ready asking myself "what I should drink?" I found that I only had milk, water, juice or liquor. I guess "before" there was never a question about what I would drink. It was either wine or gin & tonic. Usually both! Last night I had OJ with Cranberry Juice, then lots & lots of water. Alison asked me what I was drinking tonight and when I told her, she asked if that was a Mommy drink. I said nope and I could make her one too, but that I had used the last of the OJ. The look on her face when I said "nope" was of pure joy. I hope I can remember that look in the days & weeks to come. I should be honest here. I have made this decision completly on my own. My husband is out of town and he has no idea what he is going to be coming home too. I am sure he will be supportive, but I am worried about his response. I could call him, but I would rather tell him when he gets home on Monday that I have been sober for FIVE days! This time I really mean it, I am going to get sober and stay sober! I just told my best friend that I am going to be sober and she was super supportive. She quit drinking about 2 1/2 years ago. I felt so bad talking to her because I never once called her when she decided to quit drinking to see how she was doing. I was in my own drunk fog & could not believe that my drinking buddy would quit. Somehow we remained freinds and I am sure glad that we did. She had every reason to kick me to the curb, because I would drink in front of her, with no guilt or anything. So, this weekend will be hard. But I know that I can call Suzie and it will all be ok. I am strong- aren't I?? Peace. Love and Eternal Happiness, Me.